It Started With Paris


By Cathy Kelly

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“A warm hearted story of the inevitable rollercoaster of romantic love… and the more important task of loving one’s self” from #1 international bestselling author Cathy Kelly (Elin Hilderbrand).

At the top of the Eiffel Tower, a young man proposes to his girlfriend. In that second, everything changes, not just for the happy couple, but for the family and friends awaiting their return in Ireland.

Leila’s been nursing a broken heart since her husband suddenly left her, but she’s determined to put on a brave face for the bride. Vonnie, a widow, has finally dared to let love back into her life, but a curveball arises that puts another’s safety at risk. And Grace, a school principal, finds that her son’s impending union brings her ex-husband back into her daily life, and starts to ponder past decisions and wonder if her divorce was in fact a mistake.

As these three women gather around the young couple to prepare for the wedding, they’ll each have to address their own demons and find a way to move forward, whatever the cost.

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Love is a flower which turns into fruit at marriage.


At her desk on the fifth floor of the mermaid-green glass office block where Eclipse Films had their offices, Leila Martin sniffed the rose tea that her assistant Ilona had carried in for them both on a tray.

It smelled beautiful; even the packaging was beautiful: 1940s pretty, with a china cup painted in watercolors on the front and swirls of steam emerging, tiny roses drawn in the swirls.

"You'll love it!" said Ilona, arriving back in the modern office, this time with her arms full of notepad and tablet. Ilona was always bringing things in to her boss: chocolates, biscuits, a Hungarian herbal tea her mother swore by but that smelled like cat litter mixed with patio yard sweepings.

If Leila didn't know better, she'd swear Ilona was trying to cheer her up. But then Ilona knew—because Leila had told her firmly—that Leila had absolutely no need of cheering up.

It was business as usual at Eclipse. Leila Martin wanted people to know that she didn't do heartbreak or any of that type of thing. She was pretty sure she had them all fooled.

She stared back at her rose tea.

It was healthy too. Probably lowered stress levels or boosted immune systems or did something proven in scientific tests by a fleet of people with PhDs coming out their ears. It just wasn't coffee.

Worse, it wasn't coffee like Leila's favorite cup of the day, which used to be the one her husband brought her in bed in the morning and which she could hear him brewing in the classic espresso maker that shook volcanically on the top of the stove and was probably the oldest thing in their apartment.

Since Tynan had left, no coffee tasted right.

Nothing tasted right.

Six months of having to do it herself and Leila still couldn't make it just the way he had. How could a person go their whole life making their own coffee, enjoying drinking it in trendy cafés, and then fall in love with their husband's coffee, so that when he left her for another woman and another city, she was practically allergic to the taste of anything else? It made no sense at all.

When she'd been fifteen and living in the country town of Bridgeport, she and her best friend, Katy, had adored the very concept of coffee, spending their pocket money ordering skinny cappuccinos and Americanos in the café near Poppy Lane, where Leila lived.

Katy lived on the outskirts of Waterford city, a stone's throw from Bridgeport. Leila hadn't been able to wait to get out of what she considered a desperate backwater and live in the big city. Fifteen years later, both the city and coffee left a bitter taste in her mouth.

"A latte's quite nice," Katy had urged the last time she'd been up in Dublin for a weekend with Leila. They'd found seats in a smart café and Katy was running a finger up and down the menu, dithering over syrups and double shots.

"No," Leila said gloomily, "I hate lattes. All that milk. I don't know what it was about that damn French coffeemaker yoke, but it worked for him. Not for me. He jinxed it. I'm back on the tea. Builder's tea, Earl Grey—you name it. Has anyone ever checked whether a marriage breakup has a chemical effect on your taste buds? That's the only answer. Or else he's got a wax dummy of me in London and he's sticking pins into its mouth."

It sounded so ridiculous, they both laughed: the thought of the slick, modern Tynan believing in any sort of religious practice, including voodoo. He was an atheist, believed in nothing but the dollar, he said, which used to annoy the hell out of Katy, given that the Irish currency was the euro.

"If there's any wax dummy to be made, you should be the one making it," Katy said.

The two women had been best friends since they were in primary school. Both on the short side, one blonde, one brunette, and a force to be reckoned with when together, the partnership felt a bit lopsided to Leila these days. Katy was gloriously happy with her first love and Leila was very much unhappy.

Worse, Leila knew Katy thought she should be rejoicing that someone as disloyal as Tynan had walked out of her life and their one-year marriage.

Katy had said that—and more. The statute of limitations on criticizing appalling husbands was somehow up now that six months had passed. Katy wanted her friend to move on. Unfortunately, moving on was proving harder than she had hoped, and both of them knew that Leila would take the cheating Tynan back in an instant should he turn up on her doorstep repentant.

So Katy comforted during late-night phone calls, mopped up tears via supportive text messages and tried to hold off on criticizing because the once-strong Leila Martin had been made vulnerable and fragile by love.

That day, Leila ordered green tea and they settled in cozy coffee shop chairs to talk about the only thing Leila ever wanted to talk about.

"I know this sounds ridiculous now, but when we got married, it felt safe, final. As if the years of dating all the wrong guys were over and at last I'd come home to Tynan. He was The One. And—this is almost the worst bit, Katy—I pushed him to get married. He'd have been happy the way things were, living together, no bit of paper to show we were officially man and wife."

Katy, who'd heard it all before, patted Leila's knee in solidarity.

"We all do dumb things for love," she said, a variation on her previous themes. "And he wasn't The One. The One doesn't dump you for a twenty-something with thighs skinnier than her knees."

Sometimes this made Leila laugh. Not today. She barely heard, lost in reliving her mistakes. It was such a relief to be able to talk about her pain. Pretending she was utterly fine when she was at work was making recovery even harder.

"I rushed us both into it because I wanted to be with him so much. I wanted him to be mine. If only I'd taken it more slowly, waited…"

She'd been sure that Tynan wanted the same things in life as she had: he'd swung her around on their wedding day with the band playing a cheesy version of "It Had To Be You" and he'd had eyes for nobody but his blonde bride, whose face was lit up in a way that owed nothing to the careful application of cosmetics. They'd been so happy; she'd have bet her life on it.

How had she not seen?

"You OK, Leila?" Katy said. "You've gone off into the Twilight Zone."

"Yeah." Leila nodded. She managed a half smile for her best friend. "Thanks for listening. You should be charging. What's the going rate for counseling these days? Sixty quid an hour? You deserve to be paid for sitting through this, because I can't tell anyone else or they'd think I'd totally lost my marbles. This is not how people expect me to behave."

With everyone else—her colleagues, her mother, her sister Susie, who had enough on her own plate as it was—she smiled stoically and murmured that it was his decision and she was fine, really. It was what she thought people wanted to hear from a strong, ambitious woman of twenty-nine with a brilliant career.

She couldn't say that Tynan had made her feel like the crazy teenager she'd never been, and that she'd run blindly into his arms, convinced he was her destiny. He was loving, sexy, handsome, funny, kind—he'd even bought her the perfect coffeemaker.

"You should stop trying to pretend it doesn't hurt," Katy said. "It doesn't make you look weak to say you're upset. I'm sure Bill Gates would cry if his wife dumped him."

"Bill Gates is far too smart to have married someone who'd dump him," Leila retorted. "I have never felt like a loser before, but I feel like one now. And I still want him. That makes it worse."

"Listen!" said Katy sternly. "If Tynan could run out on you like that for some young hipster girl he met through work, then he wasn't good enough for you in the first place. Better you find out now rather than ten years down the line. He's done you a favor. In a few years, you'd be throwing him out."

Would she? Leila wondered sadly. She could never have seen a time when that would happen. He was like a force of nature, a passionate, devil-may-care man who'd come into her life like a tornado. She'd never have thrown him out. She loved him too much.

He'd taken his stuff and nearly all of Leila's self-confidence. Would she ever get it back? Who knew? But for now, she was off men. In fact, not just for now—forever.

A few weeks ago, on the six-month anniversary of Tynan's leaving, Leila had thrown out the little French coffeemaker and started on an odyssey into herbal teas. As grand gestures went, it wasn't much, but it was a start.

Now, at her desk, she stared at the rose tea whose virtues Ilona had extolled.

"It's my favorite," she'd said, a trace of her exotic Hungarian accent in her voice. "Jasmine is lovely, but the proper stuff is expensive and rose is calming, don't you think?"

At twenty-three, Ilona looked up to her boss and mentor with unflinching devotion, despite the fact that Leila was only six years her senior. Leila had taken her on as junior in the publicity department two years ago. Ilona's grammar had still been a bit shaky and she'd worried about her ability to write proper emails, but she'd wanted desperately to progress in the company.

What would Ilona think if she knew that the boss she admired was not a strong professional woman but someone who'd felt entirely broken for the past six months?

Of course, she would never know. Nobody would know.

We wanted different things, Leila had told people blandly.

Ilona started running through their to-do list.

They'd been busy since Leila arrived at nine on the dot, even though she had been out late the night before at a work event. Leila Martin had not become one of the most valued members of Eclipse Films' staff by taking time off.

She was good at what she did—managing director Eamonn Devlin wouldn't have hired her otherwise. She had worked hard to get where she was, devoting hours to the job and giving up weekends when required. Plus she looked like a magazine illustration of a successful media PR rep, with a wardrobe of chic trousers and elegant silk shirts or T-shirts, and never a streaked blonde hair out of place. While careful not to outshine whichever star she was accompanying, she had indefinable style and looked smart enough to make people notice her.

This morning, fifth on the to-do list was an email from a young actress's manager setting out her hotel requirements for when she arrived in Dublin to attend the premiere of a movie that was barely a nod away from straight-to-video in Leila's opinion.

"Yellow orchids, not white," she read out. "White is so last century, isn't it, Ilona? Muslin curtains on the windows in her suite."

"I'll check what sort of curtains they have in the presidential suite in the Centennial," said Ilona, pen poised over her notebook.

"They can swap to muslin, no problem," Leila said. "When the white orchid/muslin curtain/Zen garden on the terrace thing was big, they bought lots. Plus, I think they have enough Zen white sand in the basement to make one hell of a sandcastle. Phone Sergio and kindly ask him if housekeeping can get the muslin curtains up. Right, next."

"Omigod, you know everything," said Ilona admiringly.

"No," said Leila. "It's only that you get used to being asked for crazy stuff."

They continued to run through the list of requests relating to every detail of the actress's visit. It was one of those aspects of a publicity director's job that could be very time-consuming and required vast diplomatic skills. Publicizing films for Eclipse was a joy in so many ways: Leila spent time in the film world, met some of the world's most fascinating and talented actors, directors, and producers, and saw them without their public masks on.

The true professionals flew into the country, did their job with sparkling expertise, and flew out again without having requested more than wheat-and lactose-free meals in their hotel suites, approval on big interviews, and sometimes a driver for the day to see some of the sights.

And then there were the people who were determined to prove that they were so special, normal rules didn't apply.

Hideously expensive scented candles, vintage champagne on every available surface, and new Frette four-thousand-euro-a-pair sheets were commonplace among this tribe. Ditto raw food/green juices on call 24/7, rare fruits, and calorific desserts that might not be touched but that had to be there just in case the juicing got boring.

However, there were limits. When one would-be star demanded that Eclipse supply puppies to cavort at her photo shoot, Leila put her foot down. She would not allow anyone to indulge themselves at the expense of animals. A phone call to the manager of the star in question had done the trick. "Tell her we follow ethical PETA rules," Leila told him calmly. It worked a treat. Nobody wanted to get on the wrong side of PETA.

Drugs were another no-no.

"Not on our dime or our time," Eamonn Devlin said to his team when a wild young actor—not in an Eclipse movie at that moment, thankfully—trashed a hotel room in Paris while under the influence of crystal meth. "Anyone who wants it can source their own coke/OxyContin/whatever."

When Devlin spoke, people listened.

Muslin curtains and specific flowers, however, were perfectly commonplace.

"Irish music CDs, for Irish atmosphere/dancing," read Leila in amusement. "This is sweet, really. You'll have to get an iPod and download some jigs and reels."

Ilona blinked at her.

"Sorry—ask Marc or Sinead," Leila said. "You've turned into such an Irish girl, I forget you're Hungarian and don't know all our insane ways."

"Not insane," Ilona replied. "I'm proud to be Irish. Or I will be, in another year."

"You need to have the Irish dancing part of the induction, then," Leila said solemnly. "I Irish-danced for eight years and have all the medals. I'll show you sometime."

It wasn't easy, but she managed not to grin. Ilona, who never quite knew whether Leila was joking or not, gaped at her wide-eyed.

"OK, I'm kidding. I have a few Irish dancing medals, but neither love nor money would get me to dance now. I was never Riverdance quality. I was one of the ones who shuffled down the back of the line for the complicated treble steps. I got the medals out of pity.

"Right, back to the list. A choice of mineral water and Coke Zero. This is almost easy, Ilona. No temperatures for the drinks, no requirements for specially imported vodka or newly installed toilet seats. This girl is either a nice, classy person or else nobody's told her what some folks ask for. She might be one of the normal ones—or as normal as you can be when you're famous all around the planet and get papped as soon as you step outside your home without full makeup." Leila grinned. "I'm so glad I work on this side of that world and not the star side."

"Me too," agreed Ilona fervently.

Once they'd finished working their way through Leila's to-do list, Ilona headed off with her notepad and Leila turned to her computer, already filling up with a dizzying number of emails. It was almost a pleasure to come across spam in her inbox—at least those messages she could just bin, not bothering with a reply. If only they were all spam, she thought wistfully.

At five thirty that evening, one hundred and fifty miles south-west of the Eclipse offices in their modern glass office block, Susie Martin left the hospital in Waterford, got into her car, and drove off slowly in the direction of Bridgeport. She always found hospitals vaguely scary, even when she wasn't sitting in the ER waiting for news of her mother after a serious car accident. Coffee from the machine in the waiting area had helped, but even so, she felt shaky and not herself. Seeing her mother bruised and in shock had added to the stress of watching people with cuts, broken bones and pale, pained faces waiting alongside her.

Still in a state of anxiety, Susie waited till she got back to the outskirts of the city and into one of the parking slots at a small convenience store before she rang her sister.

Leila never failed to take her calls, but Susie always had the feeling that she was interrupting her sister's life: a life full of movie stars, premieres and important meetings. Susie herself kept her phone on silent when she was at work in the telecoms call center, although she left it on her desk in case Jack's school or Mollsie, the babysitter, rang. At home in the evening a caller might interrupt her helping Jack with one of his kindergarten projects—like making a dinosaur out of kitchen paper cylinders, tinfoil, and recycled bits and bobs—but that was it. No one would ever ring her and find that she couldn't talk at that exact moment because she was running a press conference for a Hollywood A-lister with thirty journalists and a cadre of TV reporters in attendance. Leila's life was big, while hers… hers was very normal.

Instantly Susie felt the surge of guilt at even thinking such a thing. Her life contained Jack: precious, joyous, special Jack. The light of her life.

But the guilt couldn't stop the knowledge that she was lonely. Lonely for the sister she'd once been so close to before Tynan had wrenched Leila away. And lonely at the thought that she'd never feel romantic love again, because she willingly gave most of her time to her precious son, the rest to her mum, and that left no time over to even think of having a man in her life.

Plus, men her age didn't exactly line up to date single mothers, did they? They were avoiding women with ticking biological clocks, not leaping into relationships with ready-made mothers who couldn't fly off to Barcelona for a weekend just for the fun of it.

She unclicked her seat belt and sat waiting while her sister's phone rang.

"Susie," answered Leila in surprise.

"It's Mum," said Susie, not bothering with formalities, "she was in a car accident."

She heard the sharp intake of breath.

"Is she—?"

"She's OK. Very lucky, the doctor said." Susie got out of the car and went into the store, phone clamped to her ear. "She's fractured her hip."

"Oh God…" muttered her sister.

"Her poor face is all bruised—which obviously isn't the worst thing, but she looks so terrible. Some old fella in an ancient Fiat plowed into her at a red light. He wasn't going very fast or it would have been a lot worse. She's pretty shaken up, though."

"Poor Mum," said Leila weakly, and Susie could hear the huskiness of tears in her sister's voice.

Susie picked up a shopping basket. Hurrying through the store, she grabbed some milk and groceries for dinner, although who knew when she'd be eating, because first she had to pick up her mother's dog and then drive to the babysitter's to collect Jack. She threw in a jumbo bar of chocolate as well. That was the low-carb, low-sugar diet out the window.

"Susie, are you listening?" said Leila.

"It's a bad line," Susie replied, realizing Leila had been asking questions. "I'm stressed," she added with some irritation. "It's my half day at work, so I had to get Jack picked up from school while I was at the hospital. Before I collect him, I have to go over to Mum's to get Pixie, as I promised that we'd have her while Mum's in the hospital. So I have to walk the damn dog too, and she'll probably eat the couch if she's left on her own because Mum lets her do whatever she wants…"

"I'm sorry," said Leila quietly. "I know you have to do everything. You're brilliant, Susie. You really are. I'll be there to see her as soon as I can. What are they going to do? Is she going to be OK?"

"I think so," Susie said, still testy and hating herself for it. She and Leila had once been so close—like twins, people used to say—and now she was snapping at her sister. "Sorry, I'm a bit shaky," she added out of guilt. "They're doing X-rays because she'll need surgery and probably a pin inserted. They won't say exactly till the orthopedic team decide. She was on a gurney for ages and was in agony until they finally gave her an injection."

"Oh, Susie, poor Mum," Leila said, and began to cry. "If I ring the hospital now, will I be able to talk to her, do you think?"

"I don't know," Susie said. "She didn't have her cell phone. You can ring the nurses' station, but I don't think they'll bring the phone to the bed—"

Leila appeared to have stopped listening, because she interrupted.

"I think she'd be asleep due to the meds," she said. "I'll talk to the nurses."

"You could try, but she might be in surgery. I'm not going in again tonight. They said they'll phone me afterwards. I have to get Jack. He's never slept over at Mollsie's."


"My babysitter," said Susie, with a certain grimness. Even the girl at the desk beside her at work, a girl who lived for partying, knew Mollsie's name. Susie's sister, Jack's godmother, didn't.

Susie felt the familiar anger flood her, anger fanned by the fear and anxiety of a day spent in the hospital worrying. "I can't believe you didn't remember that, Leila. Mollsie and Mum are the people who help me with Jack. There is nobody else."

For a second there was silence on the phone.

Susie hadn't meant the statement to sound quite so stark: that she was alone with a small child because his father hadn't been interested, and that her once best friend, her sister, wasn't around for her anymore.

But it was said now, it couldn't be unsaid, and she wasn't sorry.

She understood that Leila was brokenhearted, but Tynan had taken Leila away from Susie and their mum long before he'd run off. And though he was gone, Leila still hadn't come back to them.

"It's five forty-five now," Leila was saying awkwardly. "I'll leave the office in half an hour, go home to pick up some things, and I can be at the hospital by nine."

Susie sighed to herself. Leila had always hated being in the wrong, so she was simply ignoring her sister's comments.


"Mum won't be able to talk to you," she said evenly. "She could be in surgery."

"I think—" began Leila.

Susie was at the checkout now.

"I have to go, Leila. Bye."

"Bye," said Leila, but Susie had already pushed the "end" button, so her sister was left talking to dead air.

There were a few missed calls on Susie's phone when she got back to the car. One from a work friend and two from Mollsie telling her that Jack was fine and not to worry. Jack loved his mother's half day, when she could pick him up from school instead of Mollsie and they'd have an adventure: the park in summer or hot chocolate and a DVD snuggled up in front of the fire on wintry afternoons.

The stress of the day blasted through her, and Susie sat in her parked car and wept.

She was only thirty-one, and yet sometimes she felt ancient. Compared to the other single women at work, she was ancient. Most of the people in the call center were young, doing this job as a stopgap. They had wild weekends, booked amazing holidays on the Internet, and came back with stories of trips to places she'd only seen in photos.

Susie spent her money shopping wisely for food, buying clothes in cheap shops, saving up for Christmas and their rare holidays. She couldn't remember the last time she'd had a wild weekend—probably with Leila and Katy before Tynan had come along.

When Jack was asleep, long eyelashes sweeping over still chubby cheeks, she looked at him with such love and gratefulness that he was in her life. Yet this small boy with his hopes and dreams was her responsibility, and there was no one with whom to share it. She wouldn't trade her life with Jack for the world, but it was tough sometimes, no doubt about it.

And lonely. She'd felt lonely ever since Tynan had come into her sister's life. Susie had taken one look at him—all lean and handsome, carefully styled so as to give the impression that he'd just flung on his clothes, though she could tell he'd spent hours in the bathroom fixing his hair, practicing his moody look—and known he'd break Leila's heart.

He'd tried to charm Susie that first time they met in Bridgeport.

"How come a gorgeous girl like you isn't beating men off with a stick?" he'd asked, patting her knee in a way that was half affectionate, half flirtatious.

"I've got a big stick," she'd said grimly. "I've beaten them all away. All the losers and users, anyway."

Tynan had looked at her thoughtfully. He was too clever to rise to her comment, but she could tell that he knew she'd assigned him to the loser-and-user category.

He'd flicked his charm onto her mother then, and afterwards Susie had warned Leila about him.

"He'll dump you, Leila," she'd said earnestly. "You're not even yourself around him. It's like you're… like you're someone else, someone you think he'd like. You can't change yourself for a guy."

Her eyes had taken in the un-Leila-like tight black jeans and spindly heels, the clingy top, the rock-chick tousled hair and more eye makeup than normal.

"I like how I look," Leila had said furiously. "You're just jealous because I've finally found someone and you haven't."

The sisters had stared at each other in sudden silence. They didn't do harsh words in the Martin family. Dolores spoke gently to everyone. Nobody screamed or yelled at anyone else. The sun was never allowed to set on anger. But this, this was something different, something nasty brought in by damn Tynan.

Susie knew her sister might eventually forgive her for what she'd said. But when Tynan had done exactly what she'd known he would, Susie hadn't felt any happiness that this horrible man was gone from Leila's life. She'd felt only the loss of the sister who'd never come back to cry on her shoulder and say "I'm sorry, I know you wanted what was best for me."

That loneliness was the hardest thing to bear.

Leila bit her lip and stared out of her office window at the Dublin skyline. Down below was buzzing with people already leaving offices for home. In the distance, it was still bright enough that she could see the Wicklow Mountains, a faded purple blur where she and Tynan had once climbed the Sugar Loaf with some of his friends.

She wouldn't cry. All she'd been doing lately was crying, and she wasn't going to start in the office just because Susie had made her feel guilty on purpose. It wasn't her fault that her job was miles away from Waterford and that she couldn't nip over to take care of Jack at a moment's notice.

She had a full-time job, a career. Susie had to understand that.

Then she thought of her mother lying on a gurney in the hospital, scared and in pain, and she had to bite her lip really hard. Susie was there for Mum and Mum was there for Susie and Jack.


On Sale
Aug 4, 2015
Page Count
400 pages

Cathy Kelly

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Cathy Kelly is published around the world, with millions of copies of her books in print. A #1 bestseller in the UK, Ireland, and Australia, she is one of Ireland’s best-loved storytellers. Kelly lives with her husband, their young twin sons, and three dogs in County Wicklow, Ireland.

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