Fast Times in Palestine

A Love Affair with a Homeless Homeland


By Pamela J. Olson

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For much of her life—like many Westerners—most of what Pamela Olson knew of the Middle East was informed by headlines and stereotypes. But when she traveled to Palestine in 2003, she found herself thrown with dizzying speed into the realities of Palestinian life. 

Fast Times in Palestine is Olson's powerful, deeply moving account of life in Palestine-both the daily events that are universal to us all (house parties, concerts, barbecues, and weddings) as well as the violence, trauma, and political tensions that are particular to the country.

From idyllic olive groves to Palestinian beer gardens, from Passover in Tel Aviv to Ramadan in a Hamas village, readers will find Olson's narrative both suspenseful and discerning. Her irresistible story offers a multi-faceted understanding of the Palestinian perspective on the Israel-Palestine conflict, filling a gap in the West's understanding of the difficult relationship between the two nations. At turns funny, shocking, and galvanizing, Fast Times in Palestine is a gripping narrative that challenges our ways of thinking-not only about the Middle East, but about human nature, cultural identity, and our place in the world.


Fast Times in Palestine
"It's love in the time of occupation as Pamela Olson . . . takes us on the emotional roller coaster of her very personal experience of life in Ramallah—and in doing so lays bare the human drama of a people . . . determined to live free."
—Tony Karon, senior editor, Time
"Olson does not merely report on the world of others; she steps into their shoes and sees the world through their eyes. Fast Times in Palestine is a heroic and touching journey to self-awareness that will awaken the reader to a more humane perspective on the Arab world."
—Richard Forer, author of Breakthrough:
Transforming Fear into Compassion
"Olson's masterful storytelling, imagery, and wit take the reader on a transformative journey through Palestine."
—Anna Baltzer, author of Witness in Palestine
"A moving, inspiring account of life in Palestine that's enormously informative yet reads like a novel."
—Rebecca Vilkomerson, executive director, Jewish Voice for Peace
"Pamela Olson leads the reader on an exciting, funny, at times heart-wrenching journey, carefully deciphering complex political and historical issues. Olson is a talented writer, intelligent and exceptional in her ability to convey both tragedy and hope, remaining morally grounded and refreshingly honest."
—Ramzy Baroud, author of My Father Was a Freedom Fighter
"As an Israeli whose life was shaped by the Israeli-Palestinian conflict, I found Fast Times in Palestine moving and refreshing. Pamela Olson comes to the Middle East with a blank slate and is therefore able to hold up an undistorted mirror to the reality she encounters."
—Miko Peled, author of The General 's Son
"Pamela Olson operates in a great tradition of American explorers, from Martha Gellhorn to Susan Meiselas to Rachel Corrie—open-minded women who have thrown off a lot of tired received wisdom about a fearful part of the world in order to see it for themselves, then brought that understanding back to their own culture. This book is a triumph of sympathy and observation."
—Philip Weiss, editor of Mondoweiss
"Fast Times in Palestine will open your eyes to the human story inside the political drama. Mixing humor, memoir, political intrigue, romance, and sociological commentary, Olson's heartfelt work will change how you understand the Middle East."
—Patricia Ryan Madson, author of Improv Wisdom
"In a field overcrowded with arcane academic texts and strident polemics, Pamela Olson has broken through with a refreshing read that packs gritty journalism into a fast-paced, intimate personal narrative."
—Max Blumenthal, author of Republican Gomorrah
"Part adventure story, part searing reportage, part love story, and wholly absorbing . . . If you want to know what everyday life is like for the Palestinian people, go to Palestine; if you can't, read this book."
—Dr. Kenneth Ring, co author of Letters from Palestine

For Fayez, Yusif, Dan, Muzna, and the people of Jayyous
for their unreasonably warm welcomes
For my parents, my nephews, Lusan, and Karam
And for my teachers

Yes, quaint and curious war is!
You shoot a fellow down
You'd treat if met where any bar is,
Or help to half-a-crown.
—Thomas Hardy, The Man He Killed
"I saw only what was happening in my immediate
neighborhood, but I saw and heard quite enough to be able to
contradict many of the lies that have been circulated . . .
It is . . . necessary to try and establish the truth, so far as it is
possible. This squalid brawl in a distant city is more important
than might appear at first." 
—George Or well, Homage to Catalonia

From the Midwest to the Middle East
Do you have the patience to wait
till your mud settles and the water is clear?
Can you remain unmoving
till the right action arises of itself ?
—Lao-tzu, Tao Te Ching
"Why are you coming to Israel?"
The wide, suspicious eyes of the young Israeli border guard were unnerving after all the laid-back hospitality in Jordan.
"I'm just a tourist," I said, probably too nonchalantly.
"What kind of tourist?"
"Well, I'm a Christian," I said, starting to sweat and wishing I'd worn a cross like I'd been advised, "and I want to see the holy sites."
"What holy sites?"
His tone suggested he'd never heard of any "holy sites" in Israel.
"You know," I said carefully, as if one of us might be slightly insane, "like Jerusalem, the Sea of Galilee, Nazareth—"
"Why Nazareth? What's in Nazareth?" he cut me off sharply.
It was just a random Biblical name as far as I was concerned. I didn't know then it was an Arab town in Israel or what that meant. I certainly didn't know that the outcome of this, the first of what would be many Israeli interrogations, would profoundly affect the course of my life. But I had clearly picked the wrong answer.
"Because, I mean, that's where Jesus was born and grew up and—"
"What? He was what?"
"He was . . . Oh, right! Sorry, obviously he wasn't born there—"
"Where was he born?!"
"He was born in . . . uh . . ."
Christ. I'd sung about where Jesus was born every Sunday morning growing up in eastern Oklahoma. But I had just finished reading a Middle East guidebook, so all my associations were shifted, everything was a jumble in my head, a border guard with an assault rifle slung over his shoulder was breathing down my neck, and I couldn't think.
Just start at the beginning, I told my fevered mind. There was a woman on a donkey, and they went to an inn, and everybody sings O Little Town of—
"Bethlehem!" I smiled and shrugged expansively as if it were the most basic knowledge in the universe, trying desperately to look relaxed rather than relieved.
The guard finally calmed down. I just hoped he wouldn't figure out the connection between me and the two men behind me. If he did, we could all be in trouble.


This wasn't where I expected to end up at age twenty-three—jobless, planless, and lying through my teeth to Israeli border security.
I had graduated a year earlier, in 2002, with a physics degree from Stanford only to realize I had no interest in spending any more of my young years in a basement lab doing problem sets. Several friends were heading to Wall Street, but I had even less interest in finance than in physics. The things I enjoyed most during college—travel, writing, languages, politics, sports—didn't sound like serious career options for a math-and-science type like me.
Beyond that was only a massive mental block, an abyss of vague fear and paralysis. And I had no idea why.
Feeling dazed and ashamed, I took a job at a pub near the Stanford campus because it had the best dollars-to-stress ratio of any job I could think of, and the popular image of bartenders was almost sexy enough to make up for the savage beating my ego was taking.
After I settled in with the job, I joined a jujitsu club, one of those things I had always wanted to do but never had the time. I noticed a purple belt named Michel who had powerful shoulders, light olive skin, and slate blue eyes.
He asked me out after practice one evening. He didn't have to ask twice.
Over dinner he mentioned he was from Lebanon, a country I knew so little about I couldn't think of any intelligent questions to ask. I decided to start small. When he dropped me off at the end of the night, I asked him how to say "Thank you" in Arabic.
"Shukran," he said.
I repeated the strange word, tasting it in my mouth.
He bowed his head slightly in an utterly charming way and said, "No problem. Anytime."
We had only three months together before he took a job in another city, but they were three very good months. He talked incessantly about his native Beirut and its picturesque beaches, forested mountains, crazy nightclubs, world-class food, and gorgeous women, which surprised me. I'd always hazily pictured the Middle East as a vast desert full of cave-dwelling, Kalashnikov-wielding, misogynistic bearded maniacs, and I figured anyone without an armored convoy and a PhD in Middle Eastern studies should probably stay out of it. But Michel made Lebanon sound fabulous, and when he spoke with his Lebanese friends in Arabic and I couldn't understand, it drove me crazy. So I borrowed a friend's primer and started studying Arabic.
As the weeks passed, I began to notice a curious thing: I was actually pretty happy most of the time. I spent forty hours a week in a fantastic pub, and the rest of my time was wide open to enjoy friends and books, sandwiches and sunsets. I knew I'd been vaguely unhappy most of my life, but I never realized the extent of it until the fog gradually lifted and left me in an unfamiliar landscape so bright it almost hurt my eyes.
My ears burned, though, whenever I asked my patrons at the pub, in all seriousness, if they wanted fries with that. All this happiness and free time flew in the face of my deeply ingrained rural middle-class upbringing. Whenever I started hyperventilating about it, I took a deep breath and reminded myself that God and society could take care of themselves for a year or two whether or not I was staring at Excel spreadsheets all day. After that, if nothing better came along, I could always dust myself off, buy an Ann Taylor suit on credit, and put together a quasi-fictitious résumé like everyone else.
ONE AFTERNOON IN March of 2003, I found a copy of The Wave, a San Francisco magazine, left behind at the pub. The Iraq War had just begun, and it was full of articles about the Arab world. I flipped it open to a satirical piece about spending Spring Break in the Middle East. It listed the major countries of the region (including Lebanon), their most impressive tourist attractions, and why the people of each country wanted to kill us.
I knew it was supposed to be a joke, but it bothered me. Curious, I biked to the Stanford Bookstore and picked up a Lonely Planet guidebook called From Istanbul to Cairo on a Shoestring, expecting to see nothing but dire travel warnings. To my astonishment, it recommended the route as one of the most romantic, historically rich, and friendly in the world, and no more dangerous than Brazil or Thailand.
A month later, a friend in France named Olivier wrote to me and said he had three weeks of vacation coming up in September, and why didn't we meet up somewhere?
I had some money saved by now and was planning on traveling in the fall to a destination as yet unknown. I sent him an offhand list of half a dozen Mediterranean countries and told him to pick one, already imagining a lush late summer of Greek and Italian islands.
He wrote back: "What do you think about Egypt?"
My heart sank into my toes when I read it. I didn't even remember putting Egypt on the list. But I had given him his choice, and the Middle East was cheaper than Europe, which meant I could travel longer. Plus it bothered me that I didn't know enough to have an informed opinion on the Iraq War. My political science classes had been full of disconnected anecdotes and competing theories that left me unsure what to believe. The post-9/11 newspapers and magazines hadn't been much help, either. Here was a chance to bypass all that and have a look for myself. It was nice, anyway, to think my Arabic studying suddenly had a purpose.


As my plane landed in Cairo in September 2003, it was clear that reading a guidebook hadn't remotely prepared me for the Middle East. My knowledge of the culture was almost nil, my Arabic skills were pitiful, and I felt ridiculous in my cargo shorts, ponytail, and bare sunburned face. All the other women wore stylish, diaphanous headscarves and subtle, lovely makeup, and if the aim of that getup was to make them less attractive, it had failed miserably. When one of the more exquisite women—all luminous skin, full rose lips, and steady eyes—caught me looking at her and smiled kindly at me, I ducked my head like a frightened child.
Just then, two boisterous college-age Egyptian guys walked up to me and asked, "Where you from?"
"Uh, America," I said, too taken aback to wonder whether it was wise to reveal my nationality on my first day in the Arab world when my country was at war with an Arab state.
"Ah, America!" They seemed delighted by the revelation. "First time in Egypt?"
"Welcome to Egypt!" They smiled and bounced away toward passport control.
AS OLIVIER AND I traveled from the pyramids in the north to Luxor in the south, no one mentioned the Iraq War, and all thought of politics was lost in the dusty, sweaty shuffle of catching buses, finding restaurants, haggling over prices, and visiting tombs and museums.
When our cultural duty was finally done, we headed to Egypt's Sinai Peninsula, a remote triangle of mountainous desert wedged between the Gulf of Suez and the Gulf of Aqaba, for some rest and relaxation. Our first stop was Dahab, a backpacker's resort on the gulf coast whose main pedestrian drag ran right along the water. Past the flat, shallow reef tables was a drop-off populated by living corals and psychedelic tropical fish, then the sapphire sea filling a mile-deep crack in the earth. The jagged gold-brown Sinai Mountains rose behind Dahab to the west, and twenty miles east across the Gulf of Aqaba sat the hazy, sandy mountains of Saudi Arabia.1
We settled in at a $3-a-night camp and stretched out on brightly colored cushions in a Bedouin-style sitting area next to the sea. I put a Dire Straits tape on the camp's sound system, ordered a strawberry milkshake, watched the little aquamarine waves breaking against the reefs, and finally felt like I was on vacation.
Olivier had to leave after three days to catch his plane back to Paris. I was planning on following my guidebook's itinerary through Jordan, Syria, Lebanon, and Turkey over the next three months. But I was in no mood to pick up and be a tourist again anytime soon. I bade Olivier adieu and ordered another hookah.
A few days later, I gathered enough steam to hike two hours north to a tiny Bedouin village, a loose collection of grass huts and a few dozen camels tethered to a flat spit of desert between the mountains and the sea. There was no electricity; the only illumination came from the sun, the moon, the stars, and candles. I hadn't made any plans or reservations, but I was soon invited to have dinner and sleep on a foam mattress in one of the grass huts, for a nominal fee.
The next morning I hiked farther north to a turquoise lagoon where I came across an Estonian free diver named Dan. His hair was salty and sun-bleached and he wore a silver hoop earring, a wooden bead necklace, and a wry, dimpled smile. He dove deep into the blue depths with his weight belt, wetsuit, and carefully trained breath-holding ability while I snorkeled around the coral gardens and tried not to touch anything poisonous.
When the shadows of the Sinai Mountains were getting long, Dan and I moseyed back to the Bedouin village and found a spacious octagonal thatched shelter with a gas stove that served as a hotel and restaurant. We sat on cushions in the candlelight and talked for hours while our host prepared a dinner of fish and rice and vegetables and Bedouin flatbread. I felt more at ease than I had in months, and I soon felt like I'd known Dan for years.
Our host, who called himself Abraham, wore a traditional white Egyptian tunic and a thin white scarf fashioned into a loose turban around his head. He served us food by candlelight and told tales about Egypt and Israel dropping bombs on the Sinai, about treasures hidden in caves by fleeing Bedouins, and about smuggling on boats and camels across borders his people don't recognize. His manner of speech was bemused and ponderous, and he always had a clever, ironic expression on his face. He told us the names of the seasonal winds and said he liked octopus season best because "it's no bones, just good, white meat."
The next morning I walked back to Abraham's place to drink some tea before I departed. Then I completely failed to depart. Dan and I floated lazily among the bright yellow butterfly fish, iridescent parrotfish, and flashy lionfish, waited three hours for breakfast while the sun climbed, snorkeled again, waited three hours for dinner while the sun descended, and passed out contentedly on our cushions. The next day we did the same.
At night we went swimming at the village's sandy beach under a new moon and got a surprise. Our moving hands and feet stirred up trails of bright pinpoints of light in the water. We laughed in wonder and Dan said, "It's like a fairy tale." Abraham later told us they were billions and billions of tiny bioluminescent plankton, but we felt like we were swimming in swirling fields of sparkling water stars.
The beauty of the world filled our senses completely. Every day the sun hurtled across a flawless sky, then the galaxy floated by like a majestically slow comet. The sea shone deep blue against the Mars-like Saudi landscape. The coral gardens were incomprehensible miracles, hovering explosions of form and color below the water's surface. There was no sense of time, just an endlessly marvelous present. For the first time I understood the meaning of the phrase, "My cup runneth over."
Dan was due to leave the Sinai after four days. As we were parting in Dahab, he took me aside and said, "There's something I haven't told you. I'm not really Estonian. I grew up in Siberia, and a few years ago I moved to Israel. I'm an Israeli citizen now." He fiddled with a strap on his backpack. "Sorry for not telling you earlier. It's just easier not to say you're Israeli around here. But if you plan on visiting Israel, my house is your house any time."


I caught a ferry to Jordan and spent a week hiking around the southern Jordanian deserts. Along the way, through some process of cultural osmosis, I began to learn how to greet people in the local ways, how to spot a petty scam artist, what the local prices ought to be, and how to cut down on mild harassment from unmarried young men—namely by covering my knees and shoulders and wearing a fake wedding ring.
When I made my way up north to the capital, Amman, I liked it immediately. The best view of the city was from the hilltop ruins of the Roman Citadel at sunset. The expansive sky glowed pink and purple, the boxy white houses on the city's seventeen hills shone sand-colored, and the minarets glowed with green neon amid wheeling flocks of pigeons while the calls to prayer echoed in stereo.
I took the advice of an Irish backpacker I'd met in southern Jordan and stayed at the Al Sarayya Hotel despite its astronomical price of 14 Jordanian dinars ($20) per night. It was in the old downtown area where hospitality is still a way of life. I almost felt bad talking with shopkeepers and waiters there, because many refused to charge me for food and services after we'd chatted long enough to feel like friends.
The manager of the hotel was a droll and charming man named Fayez who'd been trained as an electrical engineer. He was an intelligent, clean-cut chain-smoker, tall and thin and distinguished looking, the kind of guy you'd expect to see patiently explaining something obscure but important on CNN. I sat in his office with a few other guests, and he offered us porcelain cups of sweet Arabic coffee, on the house. Someone asked about the stuffed white wolf sitting on top of one of his filing cabinets. Fayez explained that a reporter had nicked it from one of Saddam's palaces. He'd left it in Fayez's office and made him promise not to sell it.
"But I don't know," Fayez mused sardonically. "Probably I could get a few thousand for him on eBay. What do you think?"
My scalp began to prickle in an odd and unnerving way. This was war loot. And it wasn't from a historical event that could safely be categorized as something done in other times and other places by other people. This was here and now, and it was my country that had done the invading.
Jordan, sandwiched between Iraq and Israel, is a jumping-off point for journalists on their way to Baghdad and Jerusalem. The Al Sarayya was a favorite among independent journalists, filmmakers, and foreign aid workers. Every evening they congregated in Fayez's office to share their stories over bottomless cups of sweet, strong tea and Arabic coffee.
A Swedish woman told us that a waiter in Baghdad once started talking to an Iraqi-born Swede she was traveling with. The rest of the Swedes were impatient and wanted service, but the Iraqi-born Swede told them to wait. The waiter was telling him that his sister and her family had been on a minibus a few days earlier, and the bus had stopped for an American soldier at a checkpoint. The soldier waved them through. But as they were passing, a woman reached for a baby bottle. The soldier emptied his ammunition clip into the bus, killing six people. Apparently he'd thought she was reaching for a grenade.
As their stories went on and on, my palms began sweating and my heart beat faster. I was almost shaking. Strangely, it wasn't the horror of the stories themselves that upset me the most. It was the prickling realization of how thoroughly I had been misled by my own press and government. They'd made the war sound so clean and under control, abstract and far away. Here, it sounded like nothing short of a blood-soaked catastrophe.
Then again, maybe these "independent journalists" were lying or exaggerating, trying to impress each other and tourists like me with their big talk.
There was only one way to find out. My head began buzzing as I realized what was possible here. It was nice enough drinking tea with Bedouins and gazing at the stone monuments of bygone eras. But here was a chance to witness history as it was being made.
I asked about expeditions to Baghdad the next day and was offered a ride in a shared taxi for $200. I wasn't sure what I would do once I got there. I figured I could meet people like I had in Cairo, Dahab, and Amman, and things would work out somehow.
In the evening, I told two journalists about my plan and asked if it sounded wise.
"Are you a reporter?" one asked.
"Foreign aid worker?"
They narrowed their eyes. "Then why do you want to go?"
I shrugged. "Just to see."
They looked at me like they couldn't tell whether I was a maniac or an idiot. Then they made it vividly clear that the violence in Baghdad was far too random and gruesome for tourists.
I chafed at their patronizing tones, but I wasn't suicidal. I grudgingly took their advice.
The next evening Fayez invited me to dinner with two men, Yusif and Sebastian, who were on vacation from their work in the West Bank of the Palestinian territories. Sebastian was a young, slim Canadian paramedic with close-cropped brown hair. Yusif was a skinny, white, blond British Muslim who had the aristocratic aura of a wandering ascetic. His face was drawn tight with laugh lines, his teeth were crooked, and his age was impossible to guess. There was something childlike, almost impish about him, yet he irresistibly commanded respect and attention. His words seemed to come from a deep well of spiritual confidence that was either brilliant or insane, yet he was humble and friendly. I had never met anyone remotely like him.
They were on their way to Petra, the ancient Nabatean city carved into the living rock of a canyon in southern Jordan. Its most striking landmark is a matchless monument called Al Khazneh, which famously served as the final resting place of the Holy Grail in the film Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade. The massive, shimmering, rose-hued tomb, exquisitely ornamented and symmetrical, is accessible only through a mile-long crack in a mountain.
Sebastian found me the next day and invited me to join him and Yusif. I hesitated. I'd already gone to Petra a week earlier, and going again would cut into my dwindling time and funds. But I had, after all, just been invited to one of the most magical places on earth in the company of one of the most intriguing people I had ever met. I didn't hesitate long.
Along the way, Yusif mentioned he had trained in survival in the Sudan from age fourteen to twenty-two, and he claimed to have met Osama bin Laden during that time. Yusif had also lived in a cave in southern Spain for several years. Now he was on the town council of a hilltop Palestinian village called Jayyous.2 He spoke fluent Arabic. Sebastian and I once watched him silence an entire busload of Jordanians with his sing-song recitation of the Quran.
Both men talked compulsively about their experiences in Palestine. Yusif was sometimes offhand, almost clinical as he told his stories. Other times he was wide-eyed, like a kid describing a crime so outrageous he feared no one would believe him.


On Sale
Mar 12, 2013
Page Count
256 pages
Seal Press

Pamela J. Olson

About the Author

Pamela Olson lived in Ramallah for two years, during which she served as head writer and editor for the Palestine Monitor and foreign press coordinator for Dr. Mustafa Barghouthi’s 2005 presidential campaign. She’s published stories and articles in CounterPunch, Electronic Intifada, Mondoweiss, Israel’s Occupation Magazine, and The Stanford Magazine, and she also wrote an essay about disputed holy sites for the Encyclopedia of the Israeli-Palestinian Conflict. She lives in New York City.

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