Dear Every Breath All Entries Page 1

I am one of the lucky ones! Met my true love at 16 and been together for 28 years! It hasn’t always been easy but you learn to compromise. We have never given up on each other. We have two beautiful children and a beautiful granddaughter.

When my husband and I started dating, he had just moved back in with his dad and our relationship became what many couldn’t do: a long distance relationship. We somehow made it work though it still came with the normal ups and down with the distance between us becoming a hardship. But we did not let it ruin what we have. With each day that we haven’t saw each other, we wrote letters, and our bond and relationship became stronger. With the promise that when we are no longer apart we will make up for all that lost time, we will always have eternity. Never focus on the negative.

I visited you last summer with my 2 daughters. I wanted to leave a letter but their was a young woman deep in thought writing away in the notebook. So my daughters and I sat in the sand and enjoyed the peace of the ocean tides. I wore my brave mommy mask and along with the salt water smell I inhaled the scent of my daughters hair and silently left my worries with you and felt an immediate peace. Now 6 months later we are getting use to our new life and often remember our ling healing walk down the beach to you.

Hearing your name awakens a part of my soul no other name can. Even after all you have done for me, my heart wants you. When can I feel your lips against mine again? When will I hear your heartbeat as I lay on your chest? When will I feel your hand in mine? If God would have it, I would be with you in this instant. The heartache you caused me can not overcome the joy I feel when you’re around me. Come back to me, come back to me. When you are not around my mind thinks of you, my heart chooses you, and it will. My heart will always choose you.

Dear Dad, You came to me in my dreams last night. I know it was a dream because you've been gone from this world for 24 hours now. You were sitting on the end of my bed and I looked at you. You were so real, you looked at me and said "everything is going to be okay". I miss you with every breath I take, but I believe that the words you spoke to me are true. It might not feel like it today, maybe not even tomorrow, but I will remember those words you spoke so softly to me... everything is going to be okay...

I would give anything for one more day to tell you all the things you should have heard before you left us. How were we to know it would be the last time we would see you alive? I am thankful my last memory is of you and your family. Watch over your wife, your children, your brother and all that loved you. We heard so many wonderful stories about your kindness, you were a good person to so many people. I am so proud of you. There will always be days that I will wait for you to come through our door. Our family chain is forever broken. Rest easy, until we see you again. Love you forever, Mom

No matter what you must keep holding on. When one door closes another one opens for a reason. Life may have you down right now but you are stronger than any obstacle. Just get back up again and keep going.

We met at as teenagers. You were always there for me when I needed someone to talk to, to laugh with, and to encourage me as I shared my dreams with you. Timing was never our thing. I don’t think this life time is our time together. We never managed to be single at the same time. And when there was a glimpse of hope a few years back, logistics just didn’t make it happen. Now after 16 years of being good friends and hopeful lovers, I’ll be marrying someone else. Yet you will always be my soul mate.

I wanted to love you. I did love you but with every bad decision you made,made it harder and harder to keep that love alive. I finally did the scarest thing I had do do which was say goodbye. I cried everyday for a month. I knew something better was out there for me. You stayed the same and I changed. I became the person i wanted to be. I found the love that will last forever. I do not regret anything because without you I would have never known the difference between selfish love and selfless love.

What we had for two years was what I thought was love, but in all honesty it was anything but. I'll never understand why you did the tings you did, or how any person could do those things. We had a beautiful thing in the beginning. You gave me something to look forward to in life. When you decided to join the army I lied when I told you it's ok. I wanted to be the strong supportive girlfriend, I thought we had love to keep us strong. Except it was all a lie. We really fell apart. It did a lot of damage to my heart. Except it only made me stronger. So Thank You.

Although it’s been several years, there still isn’t a day that goes by where I don’t think of you. Not only were you my first true love, you were my best friend and I’m not sure which part of you I miss more. While it was hard to let go of the memories we shared, it was harder to let go of the future we had planned and all the broken promises. I hope you remember our love in light but most importantly, I hope you are happy wherever you are. Know that you deserve the utmost happiness and know there will always be a special place in my heart that’s forever yours. With Love, M

On October 26th 2018 you broke my heart for the last time. As if ending our relationship a year ago wasnt enough, trying to be friends when my heart and soul know we are more then that, ending our friendship by telling me I was no longer required was the deepest cut of all. My love for you never waivered. My feelings never quit. My devotion to you never ended. I still had hope that you would see we belonged together. I'm not required. My heart and soul never broke so much in my whole life. There's nothing left but a hollow shell. Eternally yours, Sunshine

You were my first born, the one who taught a young girl how to truly love. I went to every awards, every parent meeting, and every ball game (that one season you played). I’ve loved you every second for 23 years. 5 years ago you felt you were better off without your sister and me in your life. I have been broken ever since. I’ve hidden my pain of losing you and no one really knows the agony my heart feels everyday. I pray one day you will release your father’s words from your mind and find out for yourself who we are. You are forever my baby boy....love always, Mom

I’m happily married. I wouldn’t change my life for anything in the universe. But a few years before I was married, an old boyfriend, A, came into my life while my then boyfriend (now husband), C, were split up. We almost got back together but there was an argument when C went through my phone one evening and started telling A off and we never spoke again. He’s happily married now, too, but I will always wonder what could have been. A was my first true love since I was 13. I think I will always love him and wonder what if.

I am your breath, so beautiful are the days I spend with you, so inexorable the passing of time. I do not tell the incipit of our history, there is no beginning, and I pray from the bottom of my heart that there is never an end. You entered my life like a hurricane, and you messed up my cosmic order.

I've prayed for you for so long. I can't believe after years of treatments, shots, medications and Dr visits it's finally happened. I'm still in shock that in just a few short months I am going to be a mom. Your father and I cannot wait to meet you. Know you are wanted and loved and are prayed for. For those still longing, do not give up hope.

Imagine my surprise as I read the the date when Hope planned to meet Tru, October16, 2014, the exact date that I reconnected with you, my college sweetheart from 50 years ago. It was your 69th birthday. Little did either of us know you wouldn’t live to see your 70th. I was listening to my CD in the car and had to pull over because my eyes were so full of tears. I’ll look for you in the next life.

In her swan song she made him make two promises. Assurances in which he knew weren't made to be taken at face value. Even more reason to oblige. He’d taken his last breath on more than one occasion. Kaylani was a 53rd card in a deck of 52. An unheard of, unthinkable and unimaginable woman. ‘I never want to see you again,’ she forced from her quivering lips. Their decade long love story told him otherwise. Her voice cracked as her delicate hand rest alongside the stained front door in which he’d only finished two weeks prior. ‘And please buckle your seat belt.’ He chose not to.

How on earth am I to remain focused? When I am blinded by your glow... Breathless from your touch... Drawn to your smile... Mesmerised by your mind... And deafened, by the thundorous beat of your heart.. Begging you to listen to it. One. Last. Time.

Will you ever know how I truly feel about you? I was 16 years old when I first met you, now I am 24. I have loved you in silence during these passing years because I have never gotten the courage to express my feelings towards you. Every time I see you, it literally feels like my heart is going to pop out of my chest, and a million butterflies rush inside my stomach. I will never forget the first time you gave me a hug, I was the happiest girl on earth that day. Unfortunately, our paths have diverted and I rarely see you now. Just know that I love you Tavo, my platonic love.