Dear Every Breath All Entries Page 13

This year I turned 24 and you turned 26. I’ve been married 5 years now and have a little girl. It’s been 6 months since I last spoke to you. I had forgotten before that how much your voice healed me. Everything feels right with you in my life but that’s not a possibility anymore. You realized too late that it should’ve been you. Did you not know that I waited for you to call even up until my wedding day? Did you now know your voice was enough to change my mind? You were first. You had my heart. He didn’t stand a chance against our love. I hope one day we can know what would’ve been.

I meet one of the loves of my lives when I was in Kindergarten.When Gary saw me he went home and told his mom I was the prettiest girl he had ever seen.Gary and I did begin to date in seventh grade.I know he was the one for me. Gary was kind, handsome, and had a heart of gold.We married 7/06/05 and had out first daughter 7/14/06.We then had our second daughter 08/20/08. Gary and I did our very best with our girls.He had a drug problem that we hid from our girls.He did his best to get off of the drugs, but on Aug 28th, 2015 he was in car accident and he was put on Life support. TO be cont.

Mocha marks the cafe table where we sipped dark roast coffee, savored chocolate sprinkled cannolis and hot apple turnovers on a balmy March evening making starry-eyed flirtatious and engaging romantic banter cozily clutched in amorous arms composing love poems on paper napkins at our destined rendezvous. Together we have traversed divergent pathways along love’s adventurous journey from wildly winding to beautifully blossoming. Every serendipitous moment has brought us to this paradisian place as sweetheart soul mates joyfully joined in matrimonial’s everlasting union.

We met in middle school and you moved away to another country. At the age of 23 we dated but we eventually went opposite ways and married other people. Seventeen years later, our paths crossed and we had an affair for 2 years but we managed to go our separate ways again. Timing was never on our side. We never managed to be single at the same time. I think of you every day.

You brought me back to life. In a matter of 23 years, my nephew died, my brothers divorced their wives, my father died, I went through 2 horrible divorces, a very bad break up and domestic violence. My family fell apart. All I had left was my mom and my 3 girls. In 2012 I meet the love of my life. He brought me back to life and gave me 2 more daughters. We have been through immigration issues, money issues and still love and need each other as if we are each other's oxygen. I was dead for 23 years. I am alive and fighting Lupus daily. As Long as he is by my side I am alive. EJ.

We were very close friends for 5 years. There was always a mutual attraction between us, but it was never acted on. Now you are ignoring me (both when you’ve been single and in a relationship). Although we never dated, being ignored and avoided feels like I’ve been broken up with. You liked me as a friend (and more) despite my blindness, and that means more to me than you will ever know. Being around you always made me happy. I think I may have even loved you. If we are not meant to be, I hope my future husband is even greater than you. Love, Your One Who Got Away

I did not think it was possible to have someone who is the direct reflection on myself. It's as if we are two parts of the same whole. God seems to have taken one soul and created two distinct individuals. Apart, and yet intertwined in a mystical and almost incomprehensible way. I only know that I am still on a journey...a journey I must strive to complete with every breath of my soul... until I reach my final destination- you.

I know you love me, but you don’t know how to show love in healthy ways. You were the chain breaker for some of the abuse you faced growing up, but not all of it. I will be the complete chain breaker of abuse when I have children. How could you say/do these hurtful things to your own child? Your own daughter? Although I never showed it, your hurtful words and actions have caused anxiety, depression, thoughts of self-harm, codependency, and for me to look for love in all the wrong places and in unsafe situations. I pray for your piece, healing, and salvation.

I prayed for you for years.. I cant look at the stars without thinking of you and our spot on that dirt road.. So many good times.. Even though you have moved on and are with someone else you still have my heart and I miss you every day. I know that I love you because I just want you to be happy even if that happiness isn't with me... -R

I'm putting out to the universe, forgiveness. Forgiveness to myself and forgiveness to my ex. I'm allowing my heart to open to receive love, joy, and excitement for what is to come. Inner growth is my lesson and challenge. Self Love. I was unable to grow in our relationship and although sad that that chapter is over, I'm learning that it needed to be over so that I may enter into the new journey that is my destiny. I'm happy to have found a new sense of hope and worthiness. Sincerely, Butterfly

it’s been one year since you left me and I’m not the same. I decided I would move on with my life because I couldn’t be sad anymore. I fear I have settled and you always told me not to. But I needed someone who wouldn’t mind loving the ugly. The sadness comes more often then I like.. I miss you. I miss our love.. our love story will always be like a walk to remember.. It lasted forever and ended so soon. Until we meet again. ~L

I don’t know why we didn’t find one another sooner. We connected instantly and I knew from the beginning you were special. You are my soul mate. My one true and perfect love. What we have, I have only read about in my most favorite novels. If it can be true and perfect, it can with us. You see, we have found this special love later in our lives when we’ve experienced all the other kinds that come along. We have changed and grown, and now we know what true love can feel like. We belong together. Always! My perfect love!

Like Hope, I, too, would like to ask God and the universe for help in asking for forgiveness. I was so young that it seems, most of the time, that I was too young to truly have the profound feelings of love that I had and still have for a kindred spirit that called me his damsel in distress. It is my deepest regret in life to have ended that relationship. If there was only a way to go back and change things, I would. We danced in the rain and caught leaves off the roof. No one has ever known my soul as he did. I wish him all the happiness in the world, even though it’s not with me. 143 T.O.L.

As you know my life has not been easy but I know it could have been worse.I lost my father at the age of 9 due to cancer and my mother comitted suicide when I was 28yrs old - this happened during an argument we had. I studied Psychology to try and understand why people behave in a certain manner but my studies have never been able to fill the void of losing my mother.I went on to complete my MA in Psych just to make my mother proud.I am 38 years old, divorced, and I have a beautiful 6yr old daughter. The only thing I need in life is to meet someone that will love me unconditionally

I am amazed that the first paragraph in the chapter titled kindred spirits is an EXACT depiction of my first trip to bird island....facinating!I've been back three times since and always alone....

I want to put down on paper mu story of love, but I don't know how to, my life is too full of distractions. Our story has so many wonderful omens, coincidences, small miracles that have happened so far, that its almost too crazy for people to believe. It started so unexpectedly, and in such an unbelieveable place, that it is mind blowing. Little did I know, that the biggest hurdle is yet to overcome. I've already overcome what seemed impossible and moved 1000 miles to be here and now, 3 years later, I feel more scared now, than ever. We can do this Baby! Signed, Your Truly Hopeless Romantic

We met in an unexpected place and time, and everything has fallen into place including my 1000 mile move to be in your arms. Now you are still in a complicated place, afraid to lose time with your kids, but I wish you could realize, that you might lose SOME time with them, but the time you will have will be so much better quality if you are happy, can't you see that?? Your kids' happiness is important, but yours is JUST as important. The longer you wait, the harder it's gonna be. We have come through so much already, lets see how much further we can go together. Signed XOXOX