Dear Every Breath All Entries Page 12

Seems like a dream now. 25 years since the sky-diving accident that landed you in a tree in NC and subsequently in my care. Almost gone. 5 days in a coma. But you survived. And you returned. Came to say thank-you a year later to the nursing student who cared for you. Canceled my engagement, changed my life. A whirlwind long-distance romance for 2 years. Then Korea. And travel nursing. And you married someone else. I looked for you in every airport, in every city. Until this year. Until fb let me see your second wife, almost my twin. Heartbroken. Still feel you, this connection. Still love you.

Leisurely I started down the path toward the mailbox just as two couples were returning. I immediately wondered if they'd left a note. This is such an amazing way to spend a Sunday afternoon. Getting acquainted with others who've been in this very spot. I'm already feeling myself more comfortable and relaxed as I sense others being intrigued enough to read what's been left behind. Holding the first envelope and studying the penmanship I guessed it had a female author. The words were written in very small but perfect penmanship. "Open If You Dare!" I dared, unfolding a yellowish paper.

7 years. It has been 7 years since I last saw him, and yet he still invades my thoughts everyday. He is the reason my eyes will never be dry. He is the image I see when I listen to a sad song or watch a sad movie. A guy who I never dated but longed for has me wrapped around his fingers and doesn't even know it. I wish I could lose my memory so he won't invade my thoughts anymore. I keep hoping he'll come back, say sorry for hurting me years ago and tell me he loves me. I try to move on, but he always comes back. I fear I'll never get over him and end up alone. Why does love have to be so hard

After loosing you to ALS I never thought I could or would find love again. You gave me 11 years of love, kindness and laughter that I thought I would never find again. My heart was heavy and sadness filled my life. In a while the pain lessened enough to open my heart again. I have met and married P who has taught me to love again. I want you to know you are not forgotten, part of my heart will always be yours. Thank you for being a part of my life and teaching me how to truly love. Our time was short but our love is something I will carry in my heart forever. Love R

I forgive you. Even though the relationship wasn't perfect at the beginning, the last two and a half years were the best years of my life. I have some very bad memories, but I chose to stay with the good ones because at the time, you were everything I'd ever prayed for. Tomorrow will be five months since we last talked, and guess what? I've survived! I'm in a journey of self-love and I'm happier than ever. I still think about you and miss you from time to time but it gets better every day. Thank you for the great memories we created together!

High school sweethearts and married 6 years later. I couldn’t imagine a life without you. I pray that we can get pregnant soon but my medical issues are making that hard. I pray that we will live our lives to the fullest together and I pray that my depression and severe anxiety will not push you away. I love you more than anything and cannot wait to see what our future holds. You are my best friend and my soul mate. You are my Noah, my John, my tru -J

I may not have the best life and I have my share of negative things that seem to happen, but I look around at all I have and all the wonderful people i have in my life. Then i count my blessings and remember it could be worse. Find your happy!

I love you so much..i know you want to live with me and i am pushing you away intentionally because i am doing this for your good....its hard for me to live without you...every passing day its harder and harder....your love changed me but you have to move in your life...you are thinking that i am selfish and passing time with and taking advantage...but its not true i love you truly and only love you and never start my life with anyone else...and will live with your memories because all that i have now. love you always and forever Un

I was young about 7 when I walked in on my mum and auntie discussing my dads WW11 time in Burma. They were unaware of my presence until I said “Was my daddy a soldier”. This seemed to unnerve my auntie and she begged me not to ask my dad for details. At that moment my child’s brain came up with this: That was why my dad had such sad eyes and that was why God sent me to this family, it was my purpose to make him smile and be happy again. As an adult I would visit him on holidays and on my last day he would stay in the armchair with his dog, holding back his tears.

I have pictures. World war 2 Holland familys took in US military into there homes to help fight the war. the daughter fell in love with one US military man, he was captured and no one knew what happened to him. I was cleaning out the house(US) after he and his wifes passing and found the letters. I wrote her for 15 yrs. and finally got to go to Europe 2018 and visit her, and her children. me 71 her 94 (Pictures) but the one of her sons reminded me of his son in the States? do I tell? We are both alive and I dare not tell? He had made many trips back to Europe over the yrs?

Inexorably I think of you. Since our souls have collided April 7. I don't want it to stop!

I writing this, in tears on an airplane leaving the man I love. I came to Canada to study one semester...I was expecting anything but falling in love. But there he was, a guy who came all the way from Nepal to study in Canada and start a better life there. I‘m returning to my life in Austria, I‘m not sure if I will ever see him again. But what I‘m 100% sure about is that he is the greatest love I ever experienced. I felt loved every second we spend together. I miss you already, I will never forget you, I never felt more loved and accepted by anyone. Love, P

People come into our lives for a reason. You unexpectantly came into mine and I often find myself reminiscing about the immediate bond we formed. And not because I wish things were done differently. We were each in committed relationships with our now husband and wife, and I cannot speak for you, but I know I am exactly where I’m meant to be in my life.I never got to tell you how I had fallen in love with you, because I didn’t even realize it at the time. I didn’t know it was possible to be in love with two people at the same time. For some reason I feel compelled to tell you now. M

You’ve showed me c what love truly is. You’ve showed me how to care for others, how to believe in myself and how to love with all my might. You truly are the light of my life and my greatest love. You are my best friend about all else. You’re my right hand and my two in one. I love you E

We didn't know each other for long and I don't think we even found "love" together but my heart still thinks and feels for you. People say time doesn't make a relationship and now I truly believe that. We aren't together but you're still one of my best friends. I always think of you and my heart still beats faster when I'm with you. I have to believe that God and time know what they were and are doing to have us separated. It hurts not being with you but I truly hope you are happy in everything you do and can't wait to see what the future holds. Will we ever come back to each other? -xoxo

The day I learned I was carrying you, I became your mother. The euphoria I felt with this knowledge was akin to what I felt when I first held your siblings. You were the missing piece in our family, but at 8 weeks your heart stopped and the lights went out. Nobody understands like I do how you can miss someone you’ve never seen. Today I stood alone at your unmarked grave, a secluded mossy place in the woods, and placed a white rose. Your little brother kicked up a storm in my womb, but it doesn’t yet feel the same. No one can ever replace you and the happiness you brought me.

In 1990 we had a brief encounter that could have led to more. Unfortunately, it didn’t seem like a good time for either one of us and I walked away. 24 years later we had the opportunity to act on what we didn’t previously. It’s been a wonderful 4 years. Now things are changing and I feel as if it’s coming to an end. Good things come to those who wait, but don’t always last, or do they? Will faith bring us together again? I Love you with all my heart. You will always be my Kindred Spirit, T.

Lately I've been on my ups and downs... a battle with myself,deciding if I should continue being with a man that is in a relationship (a month before us) or to just walk away and just wonder what might have been. But I sooo love this man, and been the 1st time I met him was already an answered prayer. I have faith that we are the answer to each others prayers. But as I go along, I can't help but feel my heart crushing as I see their picture together posted. I am deciding to fight for this love.... but been strugling to keep myself sane on the process.. I just Love him!

It has taken me the past 18 years to forgive myself for not being a perfect mother. I have done my best at raising my two girls with what I had. I forgive myself for having a stroke after my second child and not being able to be well enough to be all she needed. I now know I did the best I could under those circumstances and that it was out of my control. I hate that my then 8 year old picked up a lot of my slack. I forgive myself for looking weird or saying weird things and in general not being “the perfect mom” . I forgive me because I know there is no such thing as perfect.

I knew at 15 I met the love of my life. Years later, I fall for you every day the same way as when we were kids. You shower me with unconditional love that leaves me dreaming over the little things you do to make me smile wider than the ocean. This journey is the best one written, and it has only just begun. Forever yours, K