Dear Every Breath All Entries Page 4

I have spent a week in June at Sunset Beach for the last couple of years. I love this beach. I walked to the mailbox in 2017 but because I have knee problems, I could not this year. I love sitting by the mailbox,watching the sea, and reading about others thoughts and desires. I hope I am able to walk down there again someday. To all the others that come to this special place, I wish them peace and happiness. This secluded spot on Bird Island is like no other. God Bless everyone that takes the hike to visit this special place.

Thank you very much for your lovely books....I have three wondefull children, and I have this wondefull time of my own to reading your Fabolous novels, thank you do much

I have a letter that I wrote several years ago now. It is too long to post here (Much longer than 600 words). But the person it was intended for would immediately know it was meant for him. Love is I think one of the greatest mysteries of humankind - and one that no one will ever fully understand... I wrote that letter as a way of letting go - and I wrote two copies. One I burned to remind myself that I could never take the words back - and one for my future husband to know that I’ve let go of the past. But in truth - I don’t think we ever truly let go of love...

I want to feel taken care of. But maybe it's just not written to happen. Few are the people who are lucky to have these blessings. Why does it hurt so bad when this is all i want. Nobody ever asked to stay. I'm staying by choice. Getting all the pain by choice. I chose this pain. This has become the biggest truth of my everyday life. This pain has become my "happiness ". The tears that come from hoping and expecting never dries. The heartaches of never being enough, never lessen. Sleeping next to the person i have ever loved, knowing that he dreams about another.

I would have had 4 but the 3rd one was a stillborn baby girl. My children turned out to be disappointments with no purpose in life. It's not because of the way they were raised because I did my best but that wasn't good enough. I'm so old now and I look back and think about the baby girl that didn't make it and I can't help but wonder if she would have been the one to make me proud to be a mother. My hope is that someday if the Lord is willing I will hold that baby girl in my arms in another life. I'm positive that I would recognize her perfect little face.

I am lost and alone I keep staring at my phone Wondering if you’ll ever come back home We both know the answer I really hate cancer Why did cancer have to take you away I miss you every single day This hurts And nothing works Because I refuse to move on This emotion is worst than a sad song I will never love again I don’t even want a friend Because this is not the end I will see you again -LR

If I could wish on a star, what would I say? I'd say I want all of our memories to go away. Clear my mind  because I'm falling apart. I was told, if it's still on your mind then it's still in your heart. My mind keeps going back And I'm falling off track,  On what I'm supposed to do Because I still love you. You're stuck on my mind, its been way too long. You've crushed my soul, you're worst than a sad song. I don't even know where did we go wrong. But I wish I had amnesia, so these memories can be gone.... - LR

Have you ever just sensed God, like truly felt his presence? Goosebumps, head to toe, just knowing that there is a Supreme Deity, a Father, who knows everything about you, the good, the bad, the ugly, and still loves you? To feel it in the moment with someone you love, a song, or alone. There are no words. It can take your breath away, leave you stunned in wonder.

I’m sure everyone has loved in their lifetime. But have you ever felt a connection with another person so deep that even miles away without any communication you know that person is thinking of you? I have felt this. I met my kindred spirit, soulmate, weird connection when we were kids. We both went our separate ways, had our own lives and families. Over the years things changed and we’ve been a part of each other’s lives for more than a decade now. But the universe is never aligned at the same time for us to be together. I’m okay, no matter what I am the loved

Do you think of the children when you see a show that portrays a great dad? They invited you to their graduations and weddings but you never came. You were sent a birth announcement when your first grandson was born and you mailed a card. Did you ever want to meet him? He's turning 9. Are you curious? Do you care? How do you not? When you left us 24 years ago we were all devastated. We mourned your loss as if you had died. A death would have been easier - we could have pretended you loved us when you left. Your departure was cruel. It didn't have to be. Why?

Sunset was our favorite place in the world. Our happy place. There were so many sunny and sandy memories made there between us. Memories that I will treasure forever. Now every year when the family and I go to that beach, we feel your presence. You left this earth too soon, but I know I will always have an angel watching over me. Everytime I feel the sun on my shoulders or a yellow boat out in the ocean, I know that it's you watching over me. Since we can't make any more memories together on earth, I hope that one day in Heaven we can. Miss you always, Lil Cousin

Awaken an energy of love within my life...find a way, make a way, and I will hold on tightly...snuggling up to the warmth of love with faithfulness to the end, loving sensitively and meaning it wholeheartedly...listening to my love with soft encouragement and cherishing his greatness and achievements with humility...getting high on life with our endless kisses, hugs, and shared intimate moments...visualising a loving, caring, and gentle life together with enlightening dreams...Awaken an energy of love within my life...kindred spirit...c

Reconnecting with you has been amazing and scary at the same time. I think about what might have been and what could be. We both have too much to lose now by crossing a line that we cannot uncross. But at the same time, there is no where I would rather be than in your arms. You don’t understand how important you have become to my everyday life. I will value our friendship for the rest of my life if that is all we get to have. Maybe someday we can belong to each other. But for now we belong to spouses that don’t appreciate what they have. Just know that you are loved.

I miss you all the time and I wish we had been closer. We were closer than many parents probably but we never bonded over our shared troubles. You’re the only one in our family who could possibly understand what it’s like being gay here in this rural area as well as dealing with the rest of our family. I feel as if I have to hide from them but even though I know you would rather I have been straight so as to avoid the problems you dealt with I know you’d understand how I feel as well as what I have to go through. I know you’d be here for me if you could. I’ll miss you always

My heart will always long for the coast of the outer banks that I had to leave behind.it molded me shaped my life with beautiful kaliescope of memories that I will hold onto forever.i hope when my time comes and I leave this world that carolina floods my mind and I feel like I'm there so I can drift off to the unknown with the peace and comfort that I can only find in carolina.the smells,the waves crashing the shore promising to come back again and again,the sunrises and the sunsets.the sand soft beneath my feet that to this day still has me grounded.thank you carolina,my home

He turned into my best friend, love of my life soul mate all in 1. He was always soft spoken, well mannered, kind and loving like no other. He had my heart by just saying hello. His smile and laugh made me feel so warm . Never thought I'd ever have a chance of ever kissing this man , much less giving into lust. It took over a year and when he drew me near that fall night and we kissed, neither wanted it to end. We meet later that night and just kissed no-stop, I was in love from then on out. After 10 years he still makes me nervous just with that grin and the kisses get better every time.

I’m am as proud of you today as I am of you yesterday and the day before. My love has grown day by day ten fold for you since the day I held you in my arms. I sit and wonder what your career paths will be, but whatever God has in store for you, I know is big. And a day will come when you leave the nest and I want you to know that it’s okay to soar. Your dad and I will never be far. Watching you grow has been the best adventure in our lives. Your dad and I couldn’t have been happier then to watch you grow up. We love you, Mommy.

With your upcoming nuptials, I feel like you are slowly slipping away from my life. As each day passes, I am saddened knowing I will not be apart of your special day. We have shared so much together it's difficult to know I will not be there for it. Through our ups and downs we have always been there for each other. Please find it in your heart to forgive me. I want my Best Friend back. Each day we spend not talking to each other creates unimaginable void in our friendship. Missing you more than you know. Your patiently waiting BFF, Sara

Well this is interesting... My name is Nora. I live in Minnesota. Winters upon us; not looking forward to that, at all. Although, there have been a lot of traumatic weather happenings.. I spend my days busy with work as a behavioral aid, going to school for my masters in social work; I’m hoping to change lives, for the better.. as many lives in as many places as I can. To much suffering and pain.. so much is unnecessary.. that is all I have for today. 

You once loved me. You called me mommy. We did everything together. I took care of you. Then one day I turned my back and you disappeared. You believed someone's lies about me. I miss you so much. They say you will come home and I have to believe it. I still have faith. I have to trust God will bring us together again. I still love you. Please love me again. Please stop hating me. Love Always, Mommy