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An Arrow to the Moon
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Luna Chang dreads the future. Graduation looms ahead, and her parents’ expectations are stifling. When she begins to break the rules, she finds her life upended by the strange new boy in her class, the arrival of unearthly fireflies, and an ominous crack spreading across the town of Fairbridge.
As Hunter and Luna navigate their families’ enmity and secrets, everything around them begins to fall apart. All they can depend on is their love…but time is running out, and fate will have its way.
Once upon a time
There was a girl who lived on the moon as its guardian. She was its heart and its breath.
One day, standing on tiptoe to glimpse the boy who made the stars fly, she lost her footing and stumbled off the edge. Her plummet was like a stone displacing water. It shifted the universe off its axis.
Slowly, slowly, everything began to crack.
The air smelled of overturned earth and impossible things. Birds dove in front of the sun like embering ash from a stick of incense. The farmer wiped the sweat from his brow and paused his work at the drill to take a swig of water. He spat aside the grass in his mouth and felt a shiver cross his skin: that distinct feeling of being watched.
The unblinking eyes stared at him from several paces away, low in the grass. The head of a man. Mud-colored. Preserved. Was it some kind of hungry ghost, making itself visible in order to bestow a request upon the living?
No. Neither a man nor a ghost. A sculpture? The farmer thought it was likely made of the same clay as the teapot that sat on his kitchen table. A nudge of his foot sent it rolling and revealed a shard of similar material half-buried in the ground.
“What are you doing?” another man called as he bent toward the land. “The well won’t be over there.”
“I found something,” he replied. “Do you have a shovel?”
“What do you need a shovel for?”
The others came over to watch as the farmer dug and scraped. More hands and tools joined to scratch at the earth, and by the time the sun was treading just below the horizon, they’d pulled up a collection of broken terracotta pieces. Enough to fill a wheelbarrow. The men would take these to the nearest city to see what money could be gotten for them.
Someone called out, “Look!”
They all saw it: light shining from the very bottom of what they’d excavated. It burned brighter with each second, and the men held up palms to shield their eyes. The ground shook; one farmer shouted an earthquake warning.
By now the world was a quick-dimming gray. It was in this almost-night that they watched the silvery light rise into the sky—a star falling in reverse—until it disappeared from sight and none of the farmers could be sure the phenomenon had been real.
The star arced through the skies. It cracked in half as it fell back down to the other side of the globe. One piece landed first; the other tumbled for a longer stretch.
In those moments, two children were born and given their names.
WHERE WE LAY OUR SCENE
Luna Chang was about to make a bad decision.
The door of the walkout basement yawned wide, and the older kids were already pouring into the night. Guppies who’d been flushed down the toilet, now finding their freedom.
“What are you doing?” Luna said to no one specific.
“There’s a guy the next house over who’s a senior at Fairbridge High—he’s throwing a party,” said one girl.
“Like, a real party?” said Luna.
“Yeah.” The girl hesitated. “Our shoes are upstairs, though.”
As if in response, a saxophone intro blared from above, followed by some auntie’s microphone-enhanced vibrato. Luna hated these things. Her mother and father liked getting together with the other Mandarin-speaking members of their very white community—which, good for them. What she didn’t get was why they had to drag her along.
While the parents wailed out Chinese oldies on the sound system upstairs, all the kids—aged four through eighteen—were relegated to the basement. This was where the youngest ones wreaked havoc and broke the cue sticks of the miniature billiards set. Where the teenagers were sullen-faced and sighing, and the oldest ones pretended not to have heard about one another’s SAT scores from their parents. Luna used to have Roxy for company… but Roxy was away at college now.
“We’re celebrating the Mid-Autumn Festival,” her father had said when Luna didn’t want to go. He’d opened his face wide with exaggerated cheer. “There will be so many different types of mooncakes!”
And then he was wrong. There was only one kind—red bean—and they didn’t even have salted egg yolks in them. This party sucked.
Luna could stay here in this corner of this random auntie’s house, watching awkward middle schoolers work at loops of string for cat’s cradle. Listening to the occasional exchange of jokes that weren’t particularly funny. Idly wondering about the people she didn’t recognize and probably would never see again.
Or she could do something different.
Her heart drummed in her ears. She was not a rule breaker.
“We don’t need shoes,” Luna said as she stood up.
Most of the teens had already gone. Only the youngest kids were left.
“I’m telling,” said a little boy, pouting. He looked fearful of the open door, the wind gusting through. He was the one who had snapped all the cue sticks in his fists.
“No, you’re not,” said one of the older guys, his tone nasty.
The kid deflated.
Luna ran over the prickly grass, shivering in her T-shirt and jeans, the late September wind whipping at her ponytail.
In a few blinks she was across to the other yard, stepping beneath the back deck and through a new door into a crowded basement. The air was thick with the smell of cigarettes and maybe something more.
Music thrummed in the bones of the house. If not for a group of people drunkenly singing along to “Losing My Religion,” she would not have been able to pick out the song behind all the chatter. This was the kind of party you saw in movies, or heard about after the fact, through the gossip chain. It was not the kind of party where Luna ever found herself. She wasn’t even allowed to attend school dances.
Maybe this was a bad idea. Should she go back?
Directly ahead of her was a couch with just enough space left for one.
“If you sit here you have to play,” said a red-haired girl she didn’t know.
“Play what?” said Luna.
“Seven Minutes in Heaven.” The girl grinned mischievously.
Luna had never played it before but knew the gist of the game. There was a flutter in her gut. She was seventeen years old and had never been kissed. She’d never had the opportunity, especially given her parents’ no dating rule.
And really, Luna was curious to do a lot more than kissing.
The girl leaned over to explain. “Each person takes turns spinning that bottle, and whoever it ends up pointing to—”
“Go, already!” someone shouted.
The boy being nudged was sitting on the floor, shaking his head. Luna was pretty sure he’d also come from the basement of the other house—he was one of the kids she’d never seen before tonight.
“I’m just watching,” he said.
Someone with pale skin and the world’s baggiest jeans stood up. “Nope, you’re playing, and I’m spinning for you.”
The empty Coke bottle was sent turning like a spoke in a wheel. Luna thought she felt a droplet hit her knee; the bottle was probably newly emptied. The glass swept around and around, trapping the light and colors of a nearby lava lamp, drawing circles on the low table.
The bottle began to lag and teeter, then rolled to a stop. As if summoned by her gaze, it pointed directly at Luna.
The group howled with delight, and the girl who’d made her join was pulling at Luna’s wrist, getting her to stand. Her pulse shifted like gears changing.
Luna could have resisted, if she’d wanted to. She could have bowed out—peer pressure was a thing that didn’t really work on her.
But a feeling rolled up like a current: Here was a kind of adventure.
Hunter Yee hadn’t meant to join the game, but here he was, being shoved into a random room in a stranger’s house. The door slammed shut behind him, and it was like a bell jar dropped down. Noise disappeared, sucked away in one gulp.
He looked around at the modern art adorning the gray walls. Large bed pristinely made and stacked with pillows. Small dresser in the corner. All of it dimly lit by two lamps.
And there was the girl the bottle had chosen. She faced away from him, watching creatures in a bright fish tank as they swept and darted from one side to the other.
Well, this was weird.
Hunter tried the doorknob. Whoever was on the other side was holding it tight. They gave a hard knock as if to admonish him.
He stuck his hands into his pockets and headed for the tank. It would probably be a good idea to speak. His palms were sweating. Why was he so nervous when he didn’t have any intention of actually doing anything?
“Cool fish,” he said, then winced. Cool fish?
The girl didn’t respond. Didn’t even acknowledge that he’d spoken. Hunter hadn’t gotten a good look at her face back when the bottle had been spinning. But her hair was so dark, and the way her ponytail hung… he was guessing she was East Asian. She definitely didn’t go to Stewart.
She was wearing a T-shirt and jeans and her feet were bare. That was a clue—the lack of shoes. Hunter wondered if she’d hopped over from next door, same as him.
That was when he noticed the fish were following the girl. She held her fingers up to the tank, and wherever she moved, they moved. The water pulled gently from side to side until she dropped her arm.
“Whoa,” said Hunter, stepping forward to give it a try. The fish scattered before he got his hand halfway up.
“How’d you do it?” he said.
She shook her head. “No idea. I’ve never seen that before.”
Her reflection watched him in the glass of the tank, dark eyes locking on his. For a moment, he forgot to breathe.
She turned so that their gazes met through nothing but air. Raised her index finger up in front of his face, moved her hand from side to side.
“Guess my trick only works on the fish,” she said.
Hunter found himself huffing a laugh.
The girl smiled, and he felt as if a weight slipped off him. Her ponytail had gotten swept around in front. She smelled like fresh laundry and something sweet. Maybe honey.
“So,” she said. “Have you done this before?”
“Done what?” His knees were oddly weak.
“Wandered into a random house for a game of Seven Minutes in Heaven with a fish-controlling girl?”
His eyes dropped to her lips.
What he knew about Seven Minutes in Heaven—or rather what he guessed, based on the conversations he’d overheard in the Stewart cafeteria: It was supposed to be spent lip-locked, maybe shedding a few items of clothing. It was supposed to go by in a hot, sweaty blink.
Several things happened in the next breath:
Someone called, “Time’s up!” The door swung open and cacophony spilled into the bedroom.
Luna spun to look and her knuckles grazed Hunter’s arm by accident. Light bloomed where their skin met.
The floor rumbled and tilted, and in some other part of the house, people started screaming.
Hunter heard the words “It’s an earthquake!”
The girl disappeared out the door and into the crowd before Hunter could stop her. Noise came rushing back into his ears like a blast of wind.
Luna ran through the house, dodging inebriated bodies and dangerously angled SOLO cups. Picture frames rattled against the walls. The ground was still shaking when she burst out of that basement and into the night.
It felt almost like a punishment for what she’d done. She never broke the rules like this. Not that there had been any spoken restriction—just the implicit understanding that her parents expected her to stay put, that they would be furious if they knew where she’d been.
She made it back to the other basement just in time.
“Luna!” her mother was calling from the top of the stairs. “We’re going home!”
The rumbling had stopped, but her parents were too nervous to stay.
“That didn’t feel like a normal earthquake to me,” said her dad. “Not like the ones in Taiwan.”
“Aiya, look at your feet!” her mother exclaimed. “And what is that smell?” She checked that nobody was within range before whispering to Luna, “How is their basement so dirty?”
In the car, her parents gossiped about the families in attendance at the party, and Luna tried to quell the guilt thrumming in her veins. What on earth had come over her? She couldn’t believe she’d snuck out like that. It was miraculous that her parents hadn’t noticed she was gone. She pressed the end of her ponytail to her nose—it smelled like cigarette smoke. She would dive into the shower the moment she got home.
Laughter from the front of the car helped to settle her pulse. Some joke or other exchanged between her parents; she’d missed it. Luna watched how her dad gazed lovingly at her mother until the light turned green.
She exhaled. The days would pass, and this one night would be nothing but a memory glittering in the back of her mind. She tapped a finger against her knee—the same finger that had drawn the fish back and forth in that water. How strange it had been. How right it had felt.
And that boy—something about him felt very right, too.
She wasn’t sure what had prompted her to behave the way she did. There’d been this unfamiliar boldness. Like someone had reached inside and turned her volume way up. She blushed and shivered to think of the minutes spent in that room. His eyes had been inky pools. His mouth looked soft. She’d very nearly leaned in and kissed him, because why not? That was the whole point of the game, wasn’t it?
What had given her pause was the feeling that they were being pulled toward each other, as magnetic and bizarre as those fish following her fingers. And when the door burst open on them: that point of contact for the sliver of a second. Her skin against his, and the spark between.
No, not a spark. Something bigger that made her hold her breath. She remembered the way it glowed before snuffing out.
Then there was the floor tipping and shuddering—she might have stayed longer if that hadn’t happened.
Luna couldn’t help wondering: Would she see him again?
Would he see her again? For the rest of the night, he would replay that moment of her disappearing, his mind wheeling around the regret of not getting her name. He’d thought that maybe he would find her back in the other basement… but then the house was in uproar, and his parents were looking for him, already mad. And his little brother was quiet in that way that indicated he was tremendously upset. Hunter guessed that it was because he had left Cody behind to go to the party.
It was hard to sleep. Hunter stared up at the ceiling, thinking of the exact shape of the girl’s dark ponytail and her soft-looking lips. The way she had taken that awkward moment and somehow burst it open, like touching her finger to a bubble.
The next morning was hell. The thing was: Hunter was a wayward star, shooting in the wrong direction.
Stay out of trouble, his mother said, time and again.
He tried, for the most part. But it was hard to fix a crooked arrow, forever veering from the intended path. The times when things went mostly right, his parents still had a way of finding fault in everything he did.
So he wouldn’t bother telling them that he had gotten himself kicked out of Stewart on purpose. In their eyes, that would probably be even worse. There was no scenario in which they would pause and listen enough to understand. They would think whatever they wanted.
Their voices floated high above him:
The words were misfires, launched at the wrong angle. They couldn’t pierce him.
Hunter’s parents believed this dark little kitchen, where they stood now, to be the most insulated part of the house. This was where all the yelling ever happened, where their raised voices were least likely to be heard from outside. Even irrationally angry, they were cautious.
The Stewart School had called, of course, making them aware that when Hunter applied for college and needed the academic transcripts, the details of his record would be forwarded along as well—with strong emphasis on the descriptions of his various misdemeanors.
He rolled his eyes. It could have been so much worse. But his parents only cared that Hunter was, yet again, a screwup. Why couldn’t he be the eldest son they’d hoped for? Didn’t he understand that he put them in a terrible position?
Hunter bit back his response: They were the ones who had pissed off some random dude they refused to talk about. They had gotten themselves into their terrible position, and Hunter and Cody were the ones suffering the collateral damage.
There was nothing to do but stand there like a cold pillar of stone and let his parents shout until their throats were sore. His little brother was nowhere to be seen. Hunter bet that Cody was huddled beneath the blanket fort in the corner of their shared bedroom, eyes squeezed shut, listening through the wall.
“If this ruins us, that’ll be your burden to bear for the rest of your life.” Hunter’s father was panting now, he’d gotten himself so worked up.
“How would this ruin us?” said Hunter. He’d almost blurted: How would this ruin you?—but caught himself just in time.
“People will hear about your antics,” said his dad. “They’ll ask questions. ‘Who is this Hunter Yee? Who is his family?’ Not only do you bring us shame—” And here he spat the word, then paused to take a big breath. “Not only do you cause us to lose face, but if someone discovers where we are? If the right person finds us? Do you think that all these years we’ve been so cautious just for fun?”
Hunter knew what his father was turning red trying to say, and he would have been lying if he didn’t admit that the thought sent a cold trickle down his spine. But Hunter was also tired of this, of the constant paranoia. Sick of how everything went back to that same fear.
His mother shook her head, her small frame wilting as she did so. “He understands. Now that he’s going to a new school, he’ll start fresh.” She turned to speak to him directly. “You’ll be better, right? No more trouble. Remember that anything you do affects others’ perceptions of Chinese people.”
She sounded exhausted.
“We’re disappointed, Hunter,” his dad said. “This is not the behavior I expect from a son of mine. If you keep this up… maybe you won’t be. Not anymore.”
His mother gasped.
“What’s that supposed to mean?” said Hunter.
“You want to be a criminal? You want to be a failure? Do you know how often you make your mama cry? When we speak to you, erbianfeng. Do you even hear what we say? If you don’t want to be part of this family? Fine.”
“No, Dawei,” said his mother, determined to be his mouthpiece. “Hunter will try. He will be better.”
His dad turned away. “We’ll see.”
“We can ask Zhang Taitai to pick him up and drop him off—”
“I’m perfectly capable of taking the bus, you know,” Hunter said loudly.
But his father was already out of the kitchen, and his mom shot him a look telling him to accept it.
Great. He would be escorted to and from school by a babysitter.
Hunter retreated to his room and found his brother exactly where he’d guessed, under the fort with a worn sheet over his head. Hunter crawled along the floor, squeezing between the wall and bed frame until he made it to the socked feet peeking out.
Cody pulled the sheet off, and it rubbed a crackle of static into his dark hair, made the strands stand up.
“Sorry for all the shouting,” said Hunter.
Cody rubbed at his eyes. “Why are they always so mad?”
Hunter searched for a pocket of truth big enough to hide the lie. “That’s just how grown-ups are.”
“But you’re almost a grown-up. And you’re not mad.”
Hunter laughed, but it was without mirth. “Sure I am.” He was mad all the time. In fact, he was furious. Sometimes he lay awake deep into the night, unable to understand how his parents made their decisions. He wound the rage tight like a string around his finger, wondering what it would take to finally cut off the circulation.
Sometimes he thought it would be best if he just left. He was certain that he could survive on his own, and he’d been saving up money all these years in case it really came to that.
But he couldn’t abandon his little brother. That was what kept him tethered here.
“When I grow up, I’m never going to be mad,” said Cody.
“That’s a good aspiration,” Hunter replied. “I should try to be like you.”
Cody crossed his arms. “I’ll never be mad like that.”
There was a firefly on her hand as she reached for her tea. She blinked and it was gone.
Luna paused, waiting for any other hint of movement. Things had been weird for the last week. Ever since the night of the party.
“Everything okay?” her father asked.
The owner of Fortune Garden came over to their table bearing three platters, and Luna was saved from having to respond.
“Here are the dishes I told you about. Bitter melon, oyster omelet, and fried sauce noodles.”
“Mary, these look wonderful,” Luna’s mother exclaimed. “So impressive!”
“A sneak peek for my favorite regulars.” Mary grinned. “You have to be honest about the flavors. I’m still tweaking the recipes before they go on the menu.”
“Delicious,” said Luna’s dad, his mouth already full. “The pork fat really makes a difference.”
Mary gave the noodles an extra stir. “When you go to Taiwan this year I might ask you to bring back some spices for me.”
They’d been speaking in Mandarin to help Luna practice, but now her parents switched back to Taiwanese to wax poetic about the merits of dry soybean paste. She took it as permission to let her mind wander.
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*"In lush prose, Pan retells both the Chinese legend of Chang’e and Houyi and Shakespeare’s Romeo and Juliet. The seemingly ordinary setting of “1991, in Fairbridge, Where We Lay Our Scene” opens up to a world full of mystery and magic."—Horn Book, starred review
- "... intricately woven tapestry of first love, intergenerational struggles, and the joys and heartaches of growing up. "—BCCB, starred review
- "An effortless fusion of myth and realism, coming of age and fairy tale, this haunting love story rises on gossamer wings, but cuts bone deep.”—Melissa Albert, New York Times bestselling author of The Hazel Wood
- “This story really comes alive through Emily X.R. Pan's prose. Every sentence feels imbued with an ethereal magic. The two protagonists bond as they discover their family's secrets, navigate their futures and seek to understand the mysterious forces that surround them.”—NPR's Books We Love
Praise for An Arrow to the Moon:
"An Arrow to the Moon is a beautifully crafted blend of mythology and modern love story, full of stunning prose, characters who feel achingly real, and magic lurking just behind the ordinary. One of my new favorites!"—Hannah Whitten New York Times bestselling author of For The Wolf)
- "An extraordinary debut from a fiercely talented writer."—Nova Ren Suma, bestselling author of The Walls Around Us
- "Magic and mourning, love and loss, secrets kept and secrets revealed all illuminate Emily X.R. Pan's inventive and heart-wrenching debut."—Gayle Forman, bestselling author of If I Stay and I Was Here
- “A lyrical love story infused with Chinese mythology.”—TIME Magazine
- " ...a brilliant story that will have you lingering on every moment. Hunter and Luna will capture your heart..."—B&N Reads
- "... story that glows with ethereal magic."—NPR
"A lovely, lyrical exploration of how a poignant Chinese myth might play out in a contemporary setting."
- “As anyone who read The Astonishing Color of After can tell you, Emily X. R. Pan’s writing is, well, astonishing, and this story, pitched as Romeo and Juliet meets Houyi and Chang'e, solidifies that fact.” —Buzzfeed
- "Like Pan’s’s debut, An Arrow to the Moon will blend romance, emotional storytelling, Chinese mythology and fantastical elements for an unforgettable combination.”—Bookpage
- “A young adult novel that crafts a bittersweet narrative of love, family, and culture.”—The International Examiner
- "Expansive, third-person chapters—including some from the adults’ perspectives—and snippets of lore create a contemporary telling with an otherworldly, age-old feel in this cleverly conceived novel."—Publishers Weekly
- "Emily X.R. Pan beautifully depicts grief in all its complexities: the numbing sadness, the rage, the confusion, and, most hauntingly, the joy."—Bustle.com
- "Through Leigh's emotional, illuminating first person narration, Emily X. R. Pan peels back the layers of her grief to expose the heart at the center. The result is a novel as lyrical as it is earnest."—Tor.com
- "...intricately woven tapestry of first love, intergenerational struggles, and the joys and heartaches of growing up."—BCCB
- Praise for The Astonishing Color of After:
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- Apr 12, 2022
- Page Count
- 400 pages
- Little, Brown Books for Young Readers